Thoughts
I'm really bored, and I've decided to type out my thoughts: I wish that I was capable of typing at super speed. That would be highly entertaining. I want someone fun to talk to right now. I want to talk to Brianna and rant about my life. It's cool that she listens to my secrets. The person that is dancing on my television is really hot. I really ugly person scared the shit out of me when I turned back to look at the TV. The world is turning gangster [I think that I'm in hell]. I want to learn how to speak German and Japonese. Learning Jap' would be really useful.. in Japan. How am I friends with so many homophobes? I don't think that they like me as much as they should, knowing that I like both genders. I don't blame them. You can't always control how you feel, and I guess that being homophobic isn't a controlled emotion. I'm not who Razz wants me to be. I can't be what Razz wants me to be. I want to be able to be loved by Razz. I can't stop thinking about Razz. Maybe I should take a breath. Maybe I should stop thinking about Razz. ::Deep Breath::. ::Le sigh::. A lot of people are telling me to give Razz time to have a chance to at least like me in that way. I'm willing to wait. I have been waiting for so long. I can't stand having to live through each and every day knowing that there is no one that I love that can love me back. I really like Razz. My parents and my little sister went to Atlantic City. Too bad Razz can't come over this weekend. Damnit, that was my way of trying to change the Razztic subject. I feel like I can't last another second of my weekend without Razz. I would be scared to own a midget as a pet. Midgets are capable of holding knives and stabbing you in your sleep. I was watching the Amanda Show, thinking that everything else would remind me of Razz. But there's this guy who was saying, "I know how it feels to be waiting.. your entire life." It was sad, because I feel like that I've been waiting, my entire life. The TV makes me feel so depressed. Every channel reminds me of Razz. I turned to a different channel, and this guy said, "I think that we were meant to be together. I just can't stop thinking about [person's name here]." I want to go play guitar now. I'll write more later on.